I'd been thinking for a while,whether there's any meaning to a failed love. Is something that will disappear the same as something that never existed?

As time passes by, the day will come when everything will fade to memories.
But, those miraculous days, when you and I along with everyone else,
searched together for just that one thing
will continue revolving forever
somewhere deep in my heart
as my bittersweet memory.




jena

this is a view from the street i walk every day to go to the citycenter

spring has arrived :)



my new room

There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind~ C.S. Lewis

My new cave :) i also have a extra bed for visitors...(hint-hint)

When all is said and done, the weather and love are two elements about which one can never be sure~Alice Hoffman

~Wow...it has been a long time. Hello everybody.
The last days (weeks, months, etc.) have been really tiresome. Live sometimes is tiresome. So, a lot of things changed since my last post and i will write about some of them. First: i graduated! yay! I'm now the proud owner of a bachelor diploma. I was really happy to leave the uni since i had some fights with the secretary's during my application process for M.A....they did not want to give me some formular's i needed to apply because they were to busy...well, yes, it wasn't pretty. I was also really disappointed about my grade for my bachelor thesis...it was not as good as expected, and i did not get an explanation because my mentor was in america. Also, the main speaker of the graduation celebration (a professor of law...i had my worst grades in his lectures) talked about how unsocial social work is since we only care about our clients, some small unfortunate minority, and it would be more social to care about the whole lot of humanity. Since i dont support that way of thinking, and think the whole reorganization of social services based on principles of business administration is really wrong, i was happy to be done with it.
In the 3 to 4 weeks from february to march, when i did not know, what i would do (get a job? continue with my studies? move somewhere else? go on an internship to england?) i was really stressed. For a control freak like me i was really hard not to know what i would do, where i would live the next week. Also, for that time i lived with my parents, and that is really hard for me, since they still treat me like i'm a 15 years old- and they also fight the whole day about pretty stupid things. no peace and harmony there. the i got accepted for an M.A. course of social work in jena, with majors in coordination, organisation and analysis. That was not my first choice of a place to study, since i wanted to stay in nuernberg, but i did not want to work, so i accepted. I was kind of sad, leaving some good friends, and i also liked sharing a flat with my brother. But i was also exited for jena. when i got the letter of acceptance, it said that my new studies would start in 2 weeks. Wow...so i had to get a flat really fast. renting a place in a city like jena, where 25% of the habitant's are students, is near impossible. There is just not enought falts! also, the price for a room in a flat-sharing community was crazy...200 euro for 9m²! That was way to expensive for me! so i called some student dorms and asked if they still had some free rooms. Usually it is really difficult to get a room in a studentdorm in germany, the common waiting period is 1 to 2 years. But when i called and shared my problem, the women responsible just said: well, if you could be her in 2 hours, i could show you some rooms"...so i got into the car, met her, and got a cute little room (12m²). I share the kitchen and bathroom with only one other person, and she's really nice. the M.A. will take 1.5 years to complete, and the current semester is really laid-back. The course consists of 18 people, and most of them are really great. We have a lot of fun, and i also like my prof's, and the different subjects we discuss. People here are a lot more friendly and easygoing than in nuernberg, and i really appreciate that. I'm also happy that i spent now more time with one of my old friends from school/church. She is studying in jena since nearly 6 years and i'm happy to refresh our friendship. Through her i also got to know a biblegroup, with some funny people in it. I even went to some partys- yep, my live is really changing.
I will try to update more in the future, and you people leave some reviews so i know some people are interested in my crazy mind and oring live :).